so I'm starting to go crazy. I'm a social person. But as I get older, I've noticed I need more and more time alone. When I was younger, I needed to be around people all the time. Even last year, I needed people. I did well when I was alone, and actually enjoyed the time when my boyfriend (at the time) was at work so I could just sit and enjoy time to myself. But I was still very social. But starting last semester, I found I need a few hours of time where it's just me. Being on my own is very freeing. Maybe that's what happens when you have a single. But for the past month, I've been living with my family and my best friend from Spain. I love them all dearly, but having NO time to myself is driving me nuts. I'm snappish and cranky and jumpy. I NEED time to be left alone so I can do what I want.
something else I've noticed is that the bigger the group of people, the more uncomfortable I get. I'm ok with a small group of 4 or 5, 7 at maximum. But bigger groups make me really uncomfortable now. What is going on with me? Why am I suddenly having problems being social? Being with people makes me self conscious because I get so paranoid about doing something wrong or saying something bad that I just don't enjoy my time with them.
this sucks. I hope I don't become a complete hermit...
I don't think you are becoming a hermit. I think you are beginning to prefer quality to quantity. It takes time and energy to develop meaningful friendships and when you do that you need fewer. I think that you also need down time so you can reflect and think about yourself and the path you are on and evaluate it from time-to-time.
ReplyDeleteYou are where you are supposed to be. And you are wonderful.