My high school, the one I graduated from, sucked. a lot. I loved it at the time but now i cant figure out why. i was constantly getting drawn into drama and, to be honest, either causing it or something. because it was constantly going on, it didn't have the stigma that most schools attach to it. no one lived "drama free" for even a week at that school. once I graduated and got away from most people, it calmed down and i realized how horrible the place had been.
After high school, I attended college literally up the street from my high school. Which is where the few people who do go to college end up. So I saw the high school people everyday AGAIN because even if they didnt go to college, they would make friends up there and come visit their high school friends. so college and high school collided and i ended up going to High School Part II as i called it. because no matter how much I avoided them, I ended up hearing about everyones bullshit drama. some of it was legitimate concerns and problems and I didn't mind helping with those. But when it became "Bitch gonna die coz she looked at my exboyfriend!", thats when I started running.
When I changed colleges and transfered out, I thought "YAY I'M FREE!" and deleted everyone off my facebook that caused the bullshit drama. I've been living without it now for over a year (jeez i feel like I'm doing AA) and never felt better. But one thing I hadn't realized is that as those high school friends make more friends on campus, they are going to make friends with my old friends and they are going to bring those friends into the drama. so when I talk to these people who i've been friends with for years, i get to hear all about it unless i just rudely say "i left and i don't want to hear about the shit going on there". which I did do and got bitched at for an hour for being a horrible friend.
the other night, I lost another friend to one particular bitch that i thought i was best friends with, but later discovered i was just the latest fad. they dated and he remained friends with me thru that. and now that they are just fuck buddies, he's turned into an asshole and just has become a pretty condescending jerk. I've been friends with this guy for over 4 years.
I hate high school. and it wont leave me alone.
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