so this is has been such an interesting and eye opening experience for me. I recently moved into my dorm at Drake University, and met some really interesting people. I'm a transfer student so I moved in early to go to orientation and such. And today was the last first day of classes, which is awkward to say. Since we have M/W/F and T/TH classes, you have 2 days that are first day of class. weird....
anyway, people here are just so much nicer. guys hold open doors and dont go "hey bitch" when they talk to me, and people make an effort to remember your name or talk to you if your lost. And everyone is just so helpful in everyway! this is much different than the east coast and what I'm used to, it took me a bit to adjust. I'm still not used to it. i keep expecting to hear something derogatory that's meant inoffensively and have to buck up and deal with "bitch" being affectionate. i really like it here. im happy.
and i realized that i haven't been happy with who I became. and I get to fix that. I lost who I was while trying to become who I'll be. that sounds all deep and stuff, but its really not. I compromised myself and my values and what I wanted for a guy and for people who didn't care about me no matter what I did. and I'm only seeing this now. I'm just sad I lost so much time. I needed to have that experience to know just how valuable time and sense of self are, but I wish it was something I could have learned by book instead of experience. and I hope I don't slip into that noose again while here.
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